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tayarisa
28 October 2011 @ 04:44 pm
Title: I wish
Pairing: Yamachii
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG
Summary: Chinen is crying and Yamada wish he could be the reasons of his cries (this is too short to have a proper summary)

It has been such a long time since I last wrote something that i'm not sure there is still people interested in reading my fics. But well this week I have been feeling kind of sad and that is way my come back fic end up being a angst.



Here I am again, watching you cry while I can do nothing to help you. I just pull you into a hug and let you cry in my shoulder. You are still sobbing and I can still fell the tears wetting my shirt, so I caress your back and stroke your hair. I’m your best friend and I’m the person you always come crying to every time you feel sad or someone break your heart.

We stayed like that for a while, you still crying and me just hugging you tight.
“Why?” you ask between sobs. “Why is life always like this to me? Why I am always the one that get hurt?” is just a whisper but they get to the bottom of my heart.
What can I do? How can I make you feel better? I always ask myself the same, but end up with no answers so I just hug you tighter.
“You’ll be alright, Chii. He just wasn’t the right person for you” That is all I can say to try to make you feel better, even if I’m not sure if it’s working.
“But Yama-chan… I love him. What should I do? How can I know if they are not good for me? Maybe the one that is wrong is me, tell me how I can be a better boyfriend” Your voice is low and full of sadness “Yama-chan I know you are always here for me, you know me well. Tell me what can I do?”

And yes, you know I’ll always be here for you, you know I care so much about you; but you don’t know I wish I could be the person for who you’re crying cause I would make sure they are always happy tears.
I wish I could be that person that made you not being able to sleep or make you wake up full of illusions. I even wish to be those tears because they come from your feelings.
I just wish for you to love me as much as you love him.

“Yama-chan, are you ok?” your voice make me snap back to reality and realize that I have stayed quiet for too long. You release the embrace and look at my face.
“Is something wrong?”
I look at your face; even if your cheeks are still wet from your tears I can see that you are worried about me. Am I making such a painful face? If only you knew how much it hurt me to see you crying like this because of someone else, if you knew that I feel like dying every time you say you love someone else.
If you only knew how suffocating is to have all this feelings inside and not be able to release them.
I wish I could tell you, but I’m afraid; I have been afraid since the first time I saw you. I’m afraid that you only see me as a friend; a good friend maybe, but just a friend. I just can’t risk this relationship.

For me your feelings are more important that mine, so with my hands I wipe your tears away and again force a smile and lie.
“I’m alright” I say and pull you again to my embrace.
Just when I’m like this I feel like I’m close to your heart, so I’ll keep this hug as long as I can.
I just wish that this moment could last forever; I wish I have the courage to confess and I wish you would accept me, because I wish I could make you smile like I know you can.

I just wish you’ll love me as much as I love you.
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This fic was inspired by a song called Yo Quisiera by Reik (is in Spanish) btw sorry for my bad english. 
I know is not good but well I hope you guys like it ^^
Comments are always loved. ♥ ♥

 
 
Current Mood: indescribableindescribable
Current Music: Super Junior K.R.Y- My love, my kiss, my heart
 
 
tayarisa
05 July 2011 @ 11:38 am
Title: Just a picture
Pairing: Yamachii
Genre: Fluff
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Yamada know that this is just work,that Chinen it's just posing for those pictures, but that doesn't stop him from being jealous.


“Acting cute it’s not going to work”Collapse )I think everyone have seem this already, but this is the picture that inspired this fic.Collapse )
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I was going to write this fic a month and half ago when I first saw that picture, but for some reason I never did. I found the idea in my laptop two days ago and decide to write it. I finish it two nights ago but posted just now.

I love jealous Yamachii so I enjoy writing this and I hope you enjoyed reading it. :D
Sorry for my bad english. I hope you guys like it ^.^

 
 
Current Mood: blankblank
Current Music: Arashi- Joy
 
 
tayarisa
22 June 2011 @ 06:01 am

Title: Useless
Pairing: Inoobu
Genre: Fluff
Rating: PG
Summary: It's Inoo's birthday and hi's worried mayb he asked for the wrong present.

I wrote this for Inoo's birthday since he is my favorite BEST member ^^  and because
koigaiiasked me to write more inoobu

“Why did you asked for such a useless present?” Collapse )


 
 
Current Mood: sleepysleepy
Current Music: lullabies in my head
 
 
tayarisa
14 June 2011 @ 02:15 am
Title: Chinen's side.
Pairing: Yamachii
Genre: Angst/Fluff
Rating: PG
Summary: What happen after a breakup with the person that you love??? Every breakup have two sides of a story, and both persons fell hurt.


The firs part is Two sides of a same story [1/2]


I'm dedicating this fic to my twin's bestfriend bakaahoumahy that it's new add LJ. Thanks for liking my fics so far. ^^ Sorry for taking so long on posting this part.

Why do I keep saying I’m better without him?Collapse )
 
 
Current Mood: frustratedfrustrated
Current Music: Arashi- Summer splash
 
 
tayarisa
10 June 2011 @ 06:41 am
Title: Yamada's side.
Pairing: Yamachii
Genre: Angst/Fluff
Rating: PG
Summary: What happen after a breakup with the person that you love??? Every breakup have two sides of a story, and both persons fell hurt.

‘No one knows what he has until he loses it’Collapse )
 
 
Current Location: My friends house
Current Mood: sleepysleepy
Current Music: Owl city- Vanilla twilight
 
 
 
tayarisa
03 June 2011 @ 01:10 pm
Title: Because of fear [2/2]
Pairing: Yamachii
Genre: Fluff/Smut
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Things has been weirds for Yamada and Chinen since the first incident between them. Yamada want to talk about it, but Chinen don't look like he do. What will Yamada do to get over this problem?


“Couldn’t you feel the love in my kisses?”Collapse )
 
 
Current Mood: embarrassedembarrassed
Current Music: 30 seconds to mars- The killer
 
 
tayarisa
03 June 2011 @ 02:01 am
Title: Because of fear [1/2]
Pairing: Yamachii
Genre: Fluff
Rating: PG (for this part)
Summary: Things has been weirds for Yamada and Chinen since the first incident between them. Yamada want to talk about it, but Chinen don't look like he do. What will Yamada do to get over this problem?

Yamada couldn’t get angrier that how he was at that time. So, this is what had been happening. Collapse )
 
 
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: Paramore- My Heart
 
 
tayarisa
13 May 2011 @ 11:15 am
Title: Because of boredom
Pairing: Yamachii
Genre: Fluff
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Chinen was bored and Yamada was ignoring him. Well, he just have to find a way of getting his attention.

This fic is dedicated to
chii_mao_13 for her Birth day. Otanjoubi Omedetou!! *hugs*

“Why are you doing this, anyways?” “I’m just bored” Chinen says in an innocent voiceCollapse )
 
 
Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
Current Music: GIRL NEXT DOOR- infinity
 
 
tayarisa
01 May 2011 @ 08:08 pm
Title: Invincible
Pairing: Inoobu
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG
Summary: Who thinks about leaving when you're livin'. Inoo find out that live can't always be perfect, now he has to find how to survive.

I'm dedicating this song fic to
[info]takahashisumiko since she is the one that make me start to listen to Jesse McCartney again.

I TRIED TO BELIEVE THAT IT WASN'T TRUECollapse )
 
 
Current Mood: calmcalm
Current Music: Jesse McCartney- Invincible
 
 
tayarisa
10 April 2011 @ 12:26 am
Title: The call
Pairing: Yamachii, Chiitaro, Ariyama
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG
Summary: Yamada was spending another night at home when suddenly he received a call that make him remember things he thought he have forgotten.


It was late at night and Yamada was sitting in the living room of the apartment he shared with his lover, when suddenly he’s cell phone buzzed; asking himself who could be calling him so late he answered the phone.


Why now? Why today?Collapse )
 
 
Current Mood: anxiousanxious